i feel pretty disconnected. it's easy for me to get anti-social. alot is going on at work. i'm going to be training two new people and doing some training myself to become a tech. it's exciting, but overwhelming. i'm starting to feel better but i have alot of days when i'm still pretty exhausted. and it's hard for me to relax when i'm around people and away from home. plus travis just got a second job working with portland ben at a mechanic shop on the reservation. so when he's around i like to see him. he's working long and hard and i'm pretty proud. i see people and i usually feel guilty. isn't that terrible? it's always my first reaction. sorry. sorry i haven't seen you or called you back or asked how you've been. i have this long list of people in my head who i love very much, who i don't seek out and connect with like i should. i don't know how some people do so much. relationships are hard work.